I struggle with the same types of issues that you do NAGL. I know it is hard but the one thing I keep telling myself over and over is "I can only control myself and my actions".
It isn't always easy esp. with me being co-dependent. That is my main goal right now which is to focus on me and not to worry about pissing her off, what she is doing. I am also working on making myself happy but it is a wild ride.
I feel for you but I am really glad to hear that you guys are staying in the same house and going to MC together.
M 33 | W 34 | Kids: S4, S3 M: 5/28/05 Bomb: 8/22/09 EA: 8/1/09 | PA 12/26/09 W L: 10/21/09 M L: 11/16/09 | 12/09 to file SA W & Boys Move Out: 3/14/10