My W met with a mutual friend, and former teacher. I just hung up with her. They had lunch today.
She described my w as a very confussed lady that has no self esteeme right now.
She asked her if she loved me and she said "right now, no".
She said that I should keep doing what I am doing. Back off completly, let her have her space. Let her find herself, and use that time to find myself.
I know all of this, I just struggle with the emmotions.
I leave the house tomorrow to spend the week alone. I'm actually looking forward to it. I love my kids and miss them so much when I am gone, but it makes it so much harder to GAL when you are a single parent. I will spend that week doing what I did two weeks ago...enjoying my time, reflecting, learning and growing.
She told me that it might take a long time, she said there is no overnight fix. She asked if I could give it 6 months. I said I didn't know. It didn't matter, she wants a divorce now. She kept telling me that Divorce is trivial in this process, that even if we file, even if we divorce, there is hope...she said she could see it.
Someone please tell me that I am doing the right thing...I know the answer, but there is something about reading it from others, learning from their expereinces.
She kept telling me that 50 days was nothing in the grand scheme of things and that I really really really needed to be patient.
