I'm tired of letting W's potential reactions control me.
I think this is what our W has been about to some degree. We're both so invested in making everything OK for each other - and I think the flip side of that is a little bit of keeping each other at arm's length. Compromising intimacy.
This move is not for DBing. This move is for me.
I think I'd rather have the M end than pretending this is nice and tidy anymore, that I'm OK just going with it. That's not respecting myself. And that she directly lies to me. That's not the woman I married.
