Horse had teeth problems just like I was wondering about. The vet helped to fix his teeth and a few days later, the horse seems about back to normal. I told H that I called the vet and his only 2 questions were what for and whose going to pay for that. Guess as long as I pay for it, he is fine about it.
I have been really depressed for a couple of weeks now. I don't knowif it's the weather chnage or what but I just feel down. I am not my usual self. I have been really quiet when I talk to my H about anything. He has asked me what is wrong and I tell him that I am just down but he does not believe me. He keeps asking if he should be worried about being served papers when he gets home next.
All about him as far as I can tell in his mind.
I think that i am just feeling low about lots of things. About my M I feel as if nothing has changed. Things are still the same and it's really not gettign any better. I have tried certain things to get nothing in return and maybe that is why I feel like I have hit a brick wall with this. I see my H's anger getting worse and most of the time I am told it is my fault for getting him angry. So I try not to be confrontational even though I know that it is not my fault that he destroys things. When I am not confrontational then i am being immature becasue I am just letting him get his way. He did not marry a woman that was a subservent to him, he tells me. Really, then why an I not allowed to say how I feel about something or say what my opinion is?
oh, well who gives a crap. It is the same old crap just a different day in my M. I think I am just aboutot give up DBing, and reading M books, and going to the MC. I think I should just live in a friggin hole and let my H do whatever it is that makes him happy. Who cares about what makes me happy?
Just venting and blowing steam.
Me-31 Him-28 D1-9 D2-6 Married 5-06 Seperated 12-07 He filed 1-08 Reconciled 4-08 D dropped 7-08 Bomb dropped about H's activities outside the marriage 4-21-09 Filed for D 4-28-09 Trying to make a go of it 6-09
