HI Pam, thanks for the doggie question-initiation.
AK gal, Yes, I do sabatoge. H once called me "Sabateur." I try not to dwell on the probs I have caused b/t us. I have a history of ruining r'ships, I finally had the sense to get enough of my act together to keep H b/c I knew he was good stuff!!
++'s H cleaned the garage!! H said in a recent convo that "things are going really well" H has called me more while we are apart. He asked today how my CT scan went, yesterday he called to see when I'd be home for dinner b/c he was going to help his mom with her computer.
He is not sick, just had an allergic reaction to cleaning the garage yesterday. Tonight he is out w/friend. I'm at library bb'ing, then I'm going to get dinner/have a drink..or two...
I heard a rumor about myself today at work that I need to talk to my boss about. I'm really angry right now & feeling defensive. I need a new job, well, wish I had a real career, I feel like this job is that-a job. I don't feel appreciated. Well, we'll see how the convo. goes w/boss. I've been trying to one-on-one with him for the past 2 weeks.
My emo's are pretty good. My head hasn't been too bad the last couple of days. The CT scan did make me motion sick for a few hours though b/c I had to tilt my head back several inches during the test.
I don't feel like I've been doing enough of "my own stuff" and need to start making some plans w/o h. He's been nice, but not real affectionate the last few days. It seems like it was working when we spent time apart-he was more affectionate/happy & seemingly appreciative of me. I NEED to let him miss me. I'm still doing too much of the planning my schedule around his. I'm going to try to stay out later than him tonight. I feel like just hanging out with myself and thinking...
Tomorrow I have vball and play late. Vball ends in 2 or 3 weeks. Hmmm...I want to get a ski pass or join a ski club. There are a lot of women I could ski with from work and h does not ski. Just need to get my head figured out first b/c I get motion sick falling on the hill!!
