That's why piecing is the hardest part.... we all have those demons... you just got to decide.
He is making the effort now. IDK if it's enough. What if he stopped... would you miss it... want it deep down? I understand your anger and dismay believe me...I too was privy to detailed correspondance to the tune of the entire 6 months on a saved skype chat.... so I got it all... didn't read it all.. but read enough. My H OW would have ended up pregnant except the old man had a Vasectomy years ago. She wanted to freeze her eggs and get his V reveresed so they could have a baby.... So freaking funny cause he got the V when our daughter was 6 months old cause he didn't want anymore (neither did I) but the fact is ... on paper... he lied to her and agreed to do it.... he would never have done that.... it's the only thing I know for sure of my H... that ...oh... and she had the "gay" H that she was stilled married to and sleeping "platonically" with. These affairs are shams. Plain and simple.
Here is what I do know.... which aint' much these days... look at my mess I am in...... Give it sometime, move slowly, without anger.
M:47 M:18 D16, S19 1st S 1/08-5/08 Reconciled/May 7, 2008 Left again Nov 9, 2009 I Filed: Nov 17, 2009 Final: April 14, 2010 EX walked away from kids too