Last night on the way home from work, I decided that I must Act As If, even if it killed me. I called H to say that I was going to the store and asked if he had any requests or if we/he needed anything. I got home, started dinner and he said he was going to practice in the basement. I say, OK, and hop in the tub with some fake wine. (you know that flavored stuff like Raspberry Zinfandel? I never get a buzz but it tastes good and it's cheap!) I read some of PSLuke's thread and it helped me.
We eat, I ask if he wants to watch the movie that we got the other night, start it, and promptly fall asleep. The movie ends, I ask how it was, and we go to bed, read, turn out the lights. He rolls over. I ask if he is ok and tell him that he's seemed distant the last couple days. He says he is ok. I was being affectionate earlier, but not hanging on him, just some nice hugs. In bed, I asked him to snuggle, but I put my head on his chest and he didn't put an arm around me. I use that as an indicator to back off/that he needs space.
This morn. we wake up before the alarm clock. I touch him, no response. I ask AGAIN if he is ok (SHUT UP, k!!) he says he is. I sidle up to him and ask if he needs space he says no, so I start to and he responds and all is well...ahem...
At some point it dawned on me that he is just REACTING to ME! I've been emo. and snappish the past couple days and he is probably expecting to happen what used to happen...things would go well for 1, 2, 3, 4 weeks, then all of a sudden BAM! the crap hits the fan and I'm an emo wreck again and chew him up and spit him out. I decide to quit feeling so pissy towards him (thinking, "why does he get so backed off every time I ask for emo support?") Well, duh, he doesn't know what the heck I'm going to do!!
So, I get ready, and say goodbye. Oh, I did say ILy after we ML and he said it back.
Pam, yes, things going WELL is a trigger for me. Opt, thanks for the vote of confidence. I will try that hw assignment soon.
The movie ends, I ask how it was, and we go to bed, read, turn out the lights. He rolls over. I ask if he is ok and tell him that he's seemed distant the last couple days. He says he is ok. I was being affectionate earlier, but not hanging on him, just some nice hugs. In bed, I asked him to snuggle, but I put my head on his chest and he didn't put an arm around me. I use that as an indicator to back off/that he needs space. 
and he responds and all is well...ahem...
