Hi, I'm having a hard time keeping it together. I worked late, now I need to go fetch some grub.
I've been so stuck in my own head I feel like I can't offer much to other db'ers right now. Does anyone want to give me a cotton 2X4 so it doesn't hurt my head?
I'm so anxious right now. I probably should have taken a chill pill hours ago.
I really want to be close to h, but I'm scared right now. I'm really feeling like pushing him away/starting something, but I know that that would be a bad thing!! I don't feel like i have the energy to act as if. Just feeling crazy right now, and really clingy, like I NEED him. BUT, when we talked about me spooning him ice cream being my job last night, I said that spooning me later was his job it looked like he recoiled. (feeling controlled) It's like when i ask for stuff from him/want him/act like i need it, he gets all backed off. I just feel angry. I want this sitch. to be better NOW! I want to feel better NOW! why is this happening ??
