d13 came home sunday and was sad. it led to a good healthy but heartbreaking crying. She cried... she was having the "I wish" .. and the worst part is we all know there is nothing we can do about it.

It was hard..but healthy to cry. I just held her. I could smell x's cologne on her. I asked her if she nuzzled with him all day ... she said "yes".. For that I was happy.... I hate that he is not who she thinks he is, but I will not rob my baby of the love that she feels from him.

But.............. the pain he has caused her...and the pain she has caused my son................... i will never forget


M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06
Moved out 3/12/07
D final 7/30/2008
finding myself again