Stepping out and Stepping UP!

[cagzmom]

d13 came home sunday and was sad. it led to a good healthy but heartbreaking crying. She cried... she was having the "I wish" .. and the worst part is we all know there is nothing we can do about it.

It was hard..but healthy to cry. I just held her. I could smell x's cologne on her. I asked her if she nuzzled with him all day ... she said "yes".. For that I was happy.... I hate that he is not who she thinks he is, but I will not rob my baby of the love that she feels from him.

But.............. the pain he has caused her...and the pain she has caused my son................... i will never forget

[TRUSTING]

ditto Cagz,

forgive, not forget

[peacetoday]

it is sad for our kids but
good you were there for her
that means so much to a growing child
they are strong and will be ok
they wont have the traditional family
they will still be ok
peace

[cagzmom]

heard a great sermon yesterday.. local church here.. it has grown from 19 people to 5000 in 3 years! anyway.. he is a good strong real deal preacher..

he said sometimes God wants us to let go of "this" so he can give us "that"... That what we are holding onto sometimes isn't His best for us.. NO not that it is bad or whatever... but that in letting go we are letting Him give us an opportunity for something better...

just thinking..... about my own life. believe in standing? yes.. believe in Gods best for my life.. yes..believe in letting go of my ideals for His best.. most definately!!

[trustingfaith]

Interesting, I heard that same message recently too! But seeing you post it is a great reminder . . . I am having one of those poor me days I guess.

[trustingfaith]

So thanks for posting that!

[cagzmom]

everything i keep hearing - and reading in my bible keep saying it over and over.. "something new" He wants to do something new in my life.

It has been so long since I made dreams and plans without the thought of X in them.. I seriously don't know how else to think.

What are my dreams?
What do I want out of the next 30 years of MY life?

I don't know.... glad I am going to counseling.

I guess it is time to start dreaming..... can't wait to figure out what for.

[peacetoday]

c
that sounds good
what are our dreams
what are Gods plans
to finally let go of the whole crises and start living for ourselves and our kids
making a fresh start
if x were to come back you can always decide then as for now to really move forward
peace

[TRUSTING]

Cagz,

You are on the right track. I truly believe we are in store for something amazing and wonderful. Keep hanging on...

[cagzmom]

thanks guys.

at the end of counseling today my c prayed... we prayed for the blank slate/wall in my mind that GOD Himself would begin to draw on it.. I pray that for you too.