Moving on with my life!

[Startingover2]

Thanks Jak, ST and VD.

I am assuming its somewhat legal as well. If he told me to do it I will. Honestly though when I see emails now from married gf or any other woman to him that are sexual but nothing else I just pass those by. They bore me LOL. Now the ones where he is asking for pills peak my curiosity. The sexual ones make me sick as I really believe OW was not the only woman when he and I were together. I am sure there were many more. They only confirm how there is no way I could EVER be with him again. I realize the depths of his problems and they aren't only addiction.

Missed his visit yesterday and only got one text.

St, not sure what he will do now. My best guess is he is manipulating people trying to gather enough money for an attorney.

People have tried to get him to look at his diet for so long in regards to his depression/addiction. He refuses to do anything. He really likes his lifestyle and has no desire to give it up. Why should he? It really hasn't cost him anything until now. His marriages we now know really weren't important to him. He still has his job (how I don't know..oh yeah enabling inlaws), his kids come around once a week and thats good enough. I am the only bad woman causing problems for him. LOL

"God has control of this sitch if you have faith in him, and he will deliver you from it. There is nothing for you to worry.."

Interesting you say that ST...I just met with our pastor yesterday about dedicating baby at church and we were talking and praying about my sitch. He said almost those exact words. He said SO2 I see so much anxiety in you about this. Why don't you turn it over to God and he is in control. He has brought you this far.

Today is a good day. We have our little music class which she loves and my kids are going to be home for dinner. Have to pin them down for that otherwise they are off doing other things all the time.

Thank you all!