I'm trying so hard not to backslide. I started on NC and need to stick to whatever I decide and be consistent. But, the comments from D about H talking about me not going to C has me feeling weak. I'm trying to focus on his actions. And I don't see him initiating contact. He did send me a TM before coming over to see the kids. Said, "Hello W, unless I hear otherwise I'll come over at 6:30 to visit kids. Regards, H". I didn't need to change the time, so I had nothing to respond. He structured it in a way for me to stay NC. He left earlier than he had to.
Ugh. Well, he obviously has noted that I'm in NC mode. No... no mindreading. My decision not to go to the joint session and go straight to NC is weighing on me. H is barely in contact with me anyway. I just don't see a way for this to improve. My NC is helping me to not get hurt, but I feel like I'm running away. I'm glad I'm going to IC tomorrow. I'm feeling a little anxious.
M40, H39 M17 T20 D13, S12 H moved out 05/09 D filed 1/10
