Hi,
I AM hot...I just don't believe it some of the time (Ok, a lot of the time)...ya know?...it's comes and goes. However, being HOT=feeling confident in MYSELF not just how I look. And that is what I really struggle with.

I don't know about willingness to give up the garage space. Do you know what winters are like in Ohio? But seriously, yes, I do not need to get upset about other distractions, etc. If I want a garage space, I can clean the garage myself...

Last night was fine. I tried to occupy myself some by putting laundry away, cooked dinner, H practiced, we chit-chatted. He kinda made fun of me for being "huffy" the night before.) I said, "it was better than lashing out at you, no?" He said, "yeah, I guess." And I said that I thought that we handled things pretty well and he agreed. Granted, I could have said something to the effect of not wanting to close him out but feeling too emo to talk about things... But, it was a Baby step for me!

I was crabby at work all day (PMS, after-math of discussion, fighting off sinus infection), but when I got home I didn't feel so crabby, but I could tell I kind of felt like "starting something" with him. Like, I felt clingy and insecure/wanting reassurance, but I felt like pushing him away. Can anyone relate? I ended up going to bed early and didn't wake up when he came to bed, so no snuggles. (He's told me in the past that he doesn't like me to hang on him ALL the time.)

Rec'd an interesting quote in an Inner Journey email today:
As our consciousness rises, our perspective becomes more and more impersonal. What does this mean?

It means we are increasingly able to view our lives and the rest of the world with detachment. This does not mean we are cold and uncaring. Rather, we are self-contained. We have well-defined boundaries and we are able to think and act objectively, clearly and responsibly.

When we have learned detachment, we do not get hooked into the thoughts and feelings of others. We are not easily upset or manipulated. We may feel compassion for others but this does not cloud our ability to choose how we think, feel and behave. We also do not need others to behave in any particular way.

"Until we take how we see ourselves (and how we see others) into account, we will be unable to understand how others see and feel about themselves and their world. Unaware, we will project our intentions on their behavior and call ourselves objective."

-- Stephen Covey

Have a good day.
ttys! karen