Instead of wondering about the "what did I do to deserve all of this bad stuff", tell me what have you gained from it? How have you grown? What does your perseverence tell you about you?
What I see is a strong and capable woman.
Go back and read what you wrote. I see this as a way for you to see what you can handle and what you have to change (ie, postponing mediation, cancelling the therapy).
The look at what else you wrote. H may not be involved or present or caring. But it sure sounds to me like you have a whole network of people who are there. Who do care. Who want to help you, support you, and make sure you are allright.
That is the why for this accident. To show you the blessings that surround you sweetie. No other reason.
"Acceptance doesn't mean resignation. It means understanding that something is what it is and there's got to be a way through it."--Michael J. Fox
