Thank you everyone for your kind words. D9 is doing fine. Has a cast on and is off to school today to show it off. DS is still as cool as a cucumber, still pulling in great grades at school and still focused on his golf.
I`m off work for a couple of days. Giving me time to recover and deal with the red tape involved in all of this.
H is like a bear.I had wondered what effect this would have on him.Hmmmm, its just more fuel to the fire.I`m telling ya, guys, if I was paralysed he`d be delighted.
He came in from work on attack mode. Not directly re accident-just other stuff that`s cropped up about it. I ignored his comments. Managed even to bring up a light hearted topic with him later on and exit quickly stage left. Just to show that his kicking me while I`m down won`t work. No offer to get groceries, cook, do housework even though I can just do the bare mininimum there right now.
I`ve had to postpone mediation for two weeks. I`ll need to be stronger emotionally than I am now.
Rang my therapist yesterday to cancel that appt. I asked her what she thought the accident was about.Well, yes, I agree with her it is about me.About me having my mind too much on H, she added and on the kids and not on me.Also, she said I am full of fear.
OK, so I am. But I am making progress. It won`t all happen over night. I still don`t get why I deserved all the bad luck I`ve been getting for the past couple of years. Must`ve been mighty bad in some past life!
Analysizing all that with my therapist doesn`t help my PMA. It takes me down if anything. I didn`t reschedule the appt.
My friends have popped out of the wood work left right and centre. They`ve been just brill.Taking the kids to school, ringing to offer support.Two of my brothers have offered me cars.My sis is a rock of support that I call on( and do!) anytime.
One pal dropped in two days` worth of dinners, lunch and treats for the kids. She has no idea of H`s unsupportiveness and no idea how much that kindness means to me. Another pal is dropping by today, says she`ll take me into town to get replacement phone. I can`t make the decision on that yet now though.
Just putting one little step in front of another right now. I know I am so incredibly lucky on so many fronts. Just want to keep focused on that.
