Hi Bluerain, Had an Ok weekend. Worked most of Saturday Took my motorcycle out on Sunday for the bonus fall day.
Yes, my depression is currently being treated with an AD (cymbalta). My self-care is try to stick to regular sleep, exercise, vit d (8000iu/day), fish oil (4000mg day), mulitvitamins, zen/relaxation/mindfulness. I track my moods & sleep hours online. I need to be better about not isolating myself when I don't feel well.
The D thing will slowly resolve but some of it (kids/coparenting with the She) will always be there. I've got some stuff going on with work/location I need to deal with. Financial issues will slowly get better over time (a few more years on the ch13, get a house, etc).
Internally I'm not sure. Depression is common down one side of my family line. I've had a few bumps of depression and anxiety throughout my life (first major episode at age 15 scared the sh*t outta' me). Lately (since 2000) I've been trying to treat it more intensively with talk therapy and meds. Initially I started with a family doc but recently I switched to a psy. I've tried a few different AD's - this one works a little better than others but I can still get pretty low sometimes. I've always been highly emotional on the inside and I'm sure that contributes to it.
Yes, we all have good days and bad days. There are times when I wonder what all the fuss was about. I couldn't have felt that bad. There was nothing wrong. Other times I wonder how it can be so bad.
This is a tough time and I don't expect to feel sunny and bright everyday. One of these days though I want live without being afraid of another mood crash happening next week, next month, or next year.
Last edited by orangedog; 10/20/0906:19 AM.
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