Not wanting to be on this boat........

[Buffet]

no it does not matter really. I am leaving for a business trip in the morning and will be gone until Thursday night, I am very naive but I keep hoping that when I return that somehow things will be magically better. The longer this goes the harder I think it would/will be to ever see her in the same light. I know I have not posted on here so long, but have been going thru this crap since April and it is getting really old, really fast.
I have made and make a ton of mistakes but the situation just feels ridiculous to me?? A big part of me wants to set a boundary of decide wether or not you want to invest the time/energy to make this work or let me know that you cannot do that so that I can move on.
Even as i type that I realize that is probably the wrong answer, but that is how I feel alot of the time at this point......