M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
It is all SSDD--some days are good, some days the alien returns. had a wonderful say todat--DH raced his R/C car and invited me to come to watch. Had a blast! Then we talked about the kids and Christmas. Dh mentioned the bvbills and how "our" credit score is good, even though "our" DTI is not so great.
On the crappy side, he has a trip planned out of town next week. The day after he gets back, I head out to visit KJ, and DH will be staying at the house with the kids so they do not miss school.
I am just being me--staying calm, consistent, and loving. I invited him to a church picninc which he is planning to attend with me and the kids tomorrow. He asked if we were going to churchm I said yes, first service, and he is welcome to join us, thta i always save him a seat. He got real quiet, then said he would see us tomorrow. For church or just the picnic--who knows?
When I went to the track, I brought him, FIL, and the girls lunch and drinks. The effort was appreciated. He seemed gld that I enjoyed myself. Is the mountain getting shaky?? Maybe. I am focused on God and loving my husband.
Living God's blessings with grace and dignity~ SMW
M40/H36 T16/M14 4K B2/08 S4/08 current
Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. I Corinthians 13:7
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
I don't know that no news is good news. More so that no news means that little has changed.
Yesterday, though, elicits a big praise report.
Some fill in first--D18 decided she did not like the rules again, and moved out of the house again three weeks ago. She has been moving from friend to friend, believing the rules do not apply to her now that she is 18. Apparently, that concept switched in her mond on Saturday night.
Friday night, Dh told the little girls he would go to church with them--to the kids' service-on Sunday. You could almosdt hear my jaw hit the floor. He had duty on Saturday aand we sis not hear from him all day. Sunday morning, the kids were driving me nuts about getting ready for church--they were more conerned with when Daddy was going to arrive. Eventually, D10 called him. He said he would meet them at church. He did!
Then, after taking an altar call for continued prayers and coming back to my seat, my mom told me that D18 had called her the night before, they had talked, and that D18 would be moving in with her Sunday after noon. Praise God, one prodigal was returning to the family and the other one was in the church!!
After church, DH came back to the house and he and I had a late breakfast together. We then took the three younger kids to the movies together. DH was here until almost 9pm. Almost 12 hours spent in family events. God is so good!
Some things are lighter between us and I often have to catch myself from slipping into using endearments.
God is working things out according to His plan, I am simply allowing Him to work them, instead of getting in His way. My growth in the Word of God is ongoing. I am so grateful that God loves me and is always constant. He is my rock and salvation and i place all faith and confidence in Him. I continue to work on school and am making plans to take the kids to Disney in the early spring. Hopefully, DH will be home and joining us.
Living God's blessings with grace and dignity~ SMW
M40/H36 T16/M14 4K B2/08 S4/08 current
Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. I Corinthians 13:7