I thank each and every one of you who has ever posted to me, argued with me, or put up with my bullshitt over the last 3+ years. I am proud to know each and every one of you.
Shoot Ian, reading this post made me dig around for my old log-in info so I could respond. It has taken you quite a while to get to the end hasn't it?! For some of us it was over so quickly.
I will always be so very grateful for your being there when I needed someone to talk to. I remember sitting on the computer in my friends basement with tears running down my face as we IM'd. You were always there when I needed you! Thank you. I don't know if I have ever really said that to you before, but I truly mean it. You are an amazing man, never forget that!!!!!!!!!
"You can't stop the waves, but you can learn to surf." Jon Kabat-Zinn
Ian - You are a special man. I hope some day we can meet up. What a long, strange trip it's been, hmmm? I am glad to have gotten to know you along the way. --D
You have been on the long hard rode....... A rode that you would travel on again, to learn what you have learned and become the man you have become.....
No one wants divorce to be the outcome of this.. Sometimes the choice to stay married is taken away from us, and you have to do the best with the cards you have been dealt.. AND you have played a mighty fine hand...... The bumps on the road..... They build character.......Nothing to fear...
Oh, and thank you..
K, T and R are wonderful kids...... They have you to look up to and things will fall into place... Have faith in your parenting... When you put the kids first as you do, things fall into place......
You know it always has to be wrapped up with that final touch of schmooze :-)
~ Let others lead small lives, but not you. Let others argue over small things, but not you. Let others cry over small hurts, but not you. Let others leave their future in someone else's hands, but not you. ~ Jim Rohn
Live Simply Love Generously Care Deeply Speak Kindly Leave the rest to God
Ahhh Ian! Here are a couple of names.......although I am not original (hence my name :P)
I_am_stronger!!!!!!!
I rock!
Released!
Crazy_is_gone!!!!
Anyhow........if I could, I would give you a big ole hug, but you warned me that you're single now so I should be careful.
I have to say whoa - amazed at the year of not seeing her daughter. Whoa.....I have no words!
As usual though, you're going to rock at this new single thing and now you're tons wiser for the next Mrs. Jew Muffin - which is quite a while down the road! <3
....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon ~ Avril Lavigne ~ ..."Nobody's Fool"...
and i just sneaked back on here (isn't that dumb...doncha think it should be snuck back on here???)
to tell you
you rock and while we may not always agree (cough...understatement...cough) i have always known that you would be there 3am morning or night busy or bored
there is something to be said for that something that many don't posses rare a gift you have shared it is lovely and i feel blessed to be a party to it
(and...to have my name on your undies...bring on the scandal) :-)
Life is different now folks. There is an overwhelming feeling of freedom and peace that overcomes a person when they no longer have dead weight continuously hanging over them like a storm cloud.
Carrie came by the house on Tuesday night to drop off a halloween bag from her parents for Tawny. Tawny and her went out on the front porch to "talk". Long story short 20 minutes later I saw Carrie break into tears and leave. The last thing she said to Tawny is "you are so beautiful" and then she started crying and left. Her weight is still squarely on her shoulders.
The conversation was basically a role reversal. My teenager playing the role of the adult and my ex-wife playing the role of lost and confused teenager. I am very proud of my little girl. She told her mom that she needs to stop talking. She told Carrie to go home and write out what she believes she has done to hurt Tawny and what she believes Tawny has done to hurt her. She told Carrie that she would do the same. She told her mother that it is obvious that talking is going nowhere and there needs to be another way.
For those who have followed my saga, this is a huge step. This is an amazing act by a child who has been put through hell by her mother and yet amazingly perseveres and plays the role of the bigger person. Will Carrie come around for her daughter???? I doubt it, but we shall see.
School is going well, I am in my finals week for my third set of classes. This is by far the toughest thing I have done in a very long time.
The dating front, virtually void right now. It will come in time I am sure, but for now, I have more important things to deal with. Of course everyone I know is trying to "set me up", yuck........
Anyway, life is getting better. the silver lining is sure easier to see today..... Take that to heart those of you who are dreading it, it is a tough thing to get through, but sometimes divorce can be a blessing in disguise.
