Magnificent

[mishka422]

In the end I never replied in any way. I thought if I replied with LOL it would send a message that joking with me is appropriate and welcomed. It isn't. He lost the right to joke with me. I don't do that to him. Of course, there's nothing I could send him that would add salt in any wound....he doesn't have any. He's happy has a freakin' clam and totally oblivious. First the kitten thing and now this. Oh yeah....rub it in please. Remind me over and over.....grrrrrrrr.

It's really hard to stay positive when bad things keep happening. I'm honestly scared to death that my mom isn't going to make it much longer. I was off work today, thank heavens, when my mom decided she wanted to take a shower. She fell in the tub and I had to go lift her up and out. She is too heavy for me and was nearly dead weight. It was frightening.

All afternoon all I have been able to think about is what the heck is going to happen when I'm sick and unable to get out to the store for medicine I need or if I'm non-functioning at all for a time due to a major illness. OMG, I worked myself into such a tizzy about it that I have been crying off and on. These are things I don't want to think about. I'm scared. I understand how people die and no one finds them for days or weeks because they are alone. Good grief! I can't even light the pilot light on my furnace!

Just feeling really useless and insignificant at the moment. Sorry guys.