wdid...I'm going to ask you what this means, from an earlier post of yours on this thread:
You think we should separate when neither one of us wants to? It worked for you and Mrs. Pup because she kinda wanted to...right? I don't know. I know the whole Gucci/Robx thing and I see how it can work, but for me, if my H would start dating I would think, "See...I knew he never loved me."
Is that last sentence something significant, a feeling you've always had? I'm just trying to guess but maybe this feeling is part of your problem.
I know most of your story but I can't recall if this is a feeling you've always had during your marriage. I'm bringing it up because if you are still feeling this way, then what is the root of it?
In other words, the way you worded the above seems odd to me and that there is more to it than what you wrote.