Does it make it better that I think he is a skank too?? Ok, probably not. I have been working on it but here it is so nice to let it out. Had a disagreement with a friend yesterday that ended badly. Then I had the most horrible dream...my Dad died. I woke up crying and it took a while to get back to sleep after that. So all in all not such a great weekend.
I did take the kids to the OZ museum in Wamego, KS. They sort of rushed me through it but it was quaint. I may have to go by myself sometime.
So yes more work to do.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
You have done so much work already, Kat. Feel good about the progress you have made, and know that we all are a "work in progress" our whole lives. You'll get there with this issue of your ex.
The OZ museum sounds really cool. I keep wanting to have my son watch it....I'm kinda protective. Do you think 7 is old enough to watch the Wizard of Oz? It's been awhile since I've seen it.
I don't know. I see your point, Gypsy, in that my first year after the bomb I think I blamed the OW about 99.9% or more. I guess my way of dealing with all that was going on then. I now see both of them as they are I think: messed up WAS. If X marries OW, he'll be her 4th husband, and I don't think would be her last. I'm more sad than angry, if anything at all. I have detached.
But sometimes I do find it helpful to vent here about OW, or whatever. I don't plan on spending my life like my X kind of full of anger and trying to hurt me as much as possible.
I tend to be a stuffer with my anger. Instead of expressing it or feeling it, I just get migraines. I think it's better to vent here occasionally than to walk around with that and getting migraines. Some people do it at IC or whatever. I think it can be a healthy thing, in moderation of course...
Sorry about your dream about your Dad. Losing a parent is really hard. For some reason, I thought my dad was immortal or something. Maybe good to acknowledge that the way you did in your dream?
The Oz museum sounds fun!!! I was with some theatre friends yesterday and they said they are thinking about doing the Wizard of Oz play at the theatre!!! Hope you have a good week!
Thanks, Becca. I have come such a long way. I am proud of the progress I have made. But it is fine to know that I have more to do.
Maybe I am a bad Mom, I let D10 watch when she was little. I got her a Barbie doll dressed as Dorothy and she called the Wizard of Oz "Barbie Street" because of the doll and the yellow brick road! lol She would also qoute the movie. She would get this puzzled look on her face and say "but I'm not a witch at all". It was very sweet. We watched it Saturday night when we got home.
Kids are the greatest.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
The dream with my Dad hit me really hard. I remember when we weren't very close and I am so grateful that we are now. He is doing a ton of work on my old Buick so S17 can drive it. They took it out yesterday and he really likes it which I am happy about. S17 just has to pay for parts, no labor. Good lesson that. Also shows S17 just how much Grandpa loves him.
He is such a great guy. I adore him.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
Ex just called to let me know about D10's flute lesson being cancelled tomorrow. I always have such a hard time getting her there on time right after work with the traffic both ways. So it is best that he takes her but just can't always happen when he is out of town like tomorrow.
Anyhow, I brought up Halloween. He knows that I want it but I offered a bit of a compromise. I said what if you took them to your parents for maybe an hour and then they really want to be here since they have never trick or treated here. he thought it was nice of me(said this) and that he would see what we could work out. I also suggested sitting down with a calendar and schedule the rest of the year so there won't be confusion, maybe the next year too but not as important right now.
Maybe I can do this afterall. However I did mention that on birthdays if we are able to work something out with all of us together I don't want his GF there since they aren't my kids family. We will see how that goes.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
Thanks, I felt a bit of a shift in my thoughts today, so hopefully I can keep that going. It means a bunch that you were keeping up with me.
So I can't walk on eggshells in my own life. I don't try to upset anyone but if they take things the wrong way and don't want to hear what I meant, I guess that can't be helped until they are willing to hear.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
Holding on to yourself and what you believe is right deep down inside, will help you make the right decision always, irrelevant who you are standing up to. It's not always easy, but it feels good. I am working on that myself. I feel like a ...grown up sometimes. xxx K
Hope you have a good week!