Positive developments? #2

[jon2911]

Interesting emotions today. Learned that U2's song "One" was about The Edge's divorce. Gave it a whole different meaning during the show. Did some Wikipedia searching today that confirmed it. Just never made a connection on all this.

Found that there are 3 videos for the song on my U218 DVD, the transvestite version, buffalo version, the restaurant. There's also an extra explaining all three. Watching all of them today, I'm wondering where I stand on all this. We've had good interaction lately. The fair was fun, but not as fun without her, and we have a lot of memories there. I texted her that a bag she bought me got me in the fair for free as they sponsored that day. She responded "your murse? Haha."

These are fun interactions, and some positives are happening. I just wonder if too much time has passed, and too much has happened. Seems to be what the song is talking about as I understand it now. I guess time will tell. The possibility still scares me that we were too different from the beginning, and that 2 1/2 years of trying since separation is for nothing. Maybe I really need to let her go and see what happens from there.

At the Fair on Saturday, they had a horse whisperer, just like in the book. It was absolutely amazing. I got there 20 minutes early, to see him leading a horse into the ring. The horse started going nuts, bucking like I've never seen. He calmly kept her reigned in, and said "I guess the show's starting early".

He explained that she had freaked out for some reason. Probably something with the stirrup. But feeling his calm and experience, and seeing that the other horses didn't go crazy had started to calm her already. "She's a good horse, but she just needs to figure out a few things right now." He worked with her for 45 minutes, watching every muscle twitch and explaining what he was reading. By the end he had a 14-year-old girl volunteer from the crowd riding her. Amazing. I had to wipe away some tears the corner. Such a picture what DBing is like.