It was me mish. I dont feel like I am borrowing trouble. I feel like I am using my head and heart 50-50%. Ok, maybe 65-35%, ok, 75-25%... But pretending never got me anywhere.
I am fun and funny with him. I show interest, I dont blame/accuse etc. I dont bring the past up much. I was talkative and charmed his friends (he looked proud), I am working my @ss off at work, lost those 2 extra kilos and I am fine with my weight. I am OK, in general. My dad will take his tests back tomorrow that will either cofirm something works or bring us sadness, I am not stoping my life. But I cant pretend I have all I want or believe I will any time soon. k
