Got out of town with a friend for one night this weekend and had some fun (good GAL). Toward the end of the trip, my mind started drifting back to her and I started feeling bad again. This emotional roolercoaster is so hard to deal with! I am really struggling with detachment, I wish my brain would hurry up and just start to focus on me and my life for a change.
No change on the S front this weekend. She has not said whether or not she actually submitted her apartment application so I guess I am in a holding pattern with that for now. I am trying to prepare myself to stand up for how I feel about her decision to S, especially since OM is probably involved. I just wish I had hard evidence of ongoing A but I don't think I could get it without hiring a PI.
It is going to be hard to go dark if she leaves and I hope I can be strong enough to follow through.
