Hello,
Well H never said anything about going out w/his friends this weekend so that meant that he would be with me. I got home from work around 6 and H was not home (he gets off at 4 on Fri's). He called me at 7:20 saying that he was at his parents' working on a flyer for his band. My 180's were NOT calling him to see where he was (he would feel controlled), and NOT getting upset with him when he did call. I did feel some anxiety as the time went on, but I knew I would hear from him not too late, and I used it to read more of Sage's threads that I have been reading. I thought maybe he got stuck working on a car, went to his parents, but my fear was that his buddy called him and he went to a bar w/o telling me. Glad I was wrong.

So, we decide to go to dinner and see a movie if it's not too late. It ended up being too late so we rented one. Dinner convo. was good. He's not a man of many words, and sometimes I feel like we dont' have enough to talk about. He's still sick too.

He told me that his friend did call him but he told him that he didn't feel good so he wasn't going out. I was a little hurt like, why didn't he say he was spending time with me? And when either of us goes out on the weekend, we usually give each other a few days' notice. & I wondered if he did feel good if he would call me and tell me in the afternoon. ???

When we went to bed I told him I had fun, and he said, "dinner & a movie..ooooh.." like it was boring. I said, well I had a nice time talking to you & spending time with you. So, my mind is off again thinking, did he not have fun? or was he concerned that b/c he is sick we were not going out? (one of my many complaints that I have expressed with him.)

On a + note, we were talking about getting together w/another couple for dinner and he said, "how about next weekend?" His band is playing out on friday, and sat. is Sweetest Day. So i told him that Sat. is sweetest day and he said, "ok, the following weekend." Sweetest day is like a mini Valentine's day here in Oh. How it got started, I'm not sure. Hallmark??

Anyhow, I didn't have any expectations to ML which is good b/c we didn't. He was having coughing fits this morning, and sneezing and sniffling, so he probably doesn't feel too seXy.

Today he works and has band practice, and we are going to see a band tonight. He doesn't know if he is playing remote control cars or not tomorrow, so we'll have lots of time. So, I know that I must make this a positive experience and not get upset about anything or it won't happen again! (well, maybe not ever.) And, I'm also wondering if him spending all this time w/me is going to freak him out. He was so affectionate and initiated sex A LOT that week he was gone every night! So, I am thinking about making plans w/a gf for Monday and telling H to fend for himself/go out w/a friend.

I made plans for wed, and thurs i play vball. H usually bikes on tues but it's getting cold out...

For me, I need to keep up my PMA, do some housework, walk the dogs, and keep having fun joking around w/h being silly and acting confident, secure, and happy.