Trying to save my M. W not really trying though.

[etrain]

And this is why you need to decide what direction you're going in? Just th other day, you say you give up. Now that you've seen this, are you sure taht's the the right move? I don't think so. I think based on your posts here, yeah, your W is all excited to get out on her own and all that jazz. But I really think she'll end up being one of those that after a couple of months of that new found 'freedom', she'll really be second guessing EVERYTHING. So, I'd start to take some time to really contemplate what it is you want to do here, becuase once she's out that door, it takes but one false move to blow any chance of saving your M.

You've done well so far, but to me it sounds like you're not so sure what you want.

I would have been a little more closed off on how I was feeling tho.

You're right. I'm not sure what I want. She has been my world for 12 years & it's going to take more than a month or two for me to detach. Maybe some time living apart will help me (or force me to) figure that out. I want my "old" W back...but I know know if that's even possible.
If there's any chance of reconciliation at this point, I think it would have to come from her & she would have to be 100% committed. In the meantime, I need to GAL & get myself together in preparation for D. Easier said than done.

Perhaps she had a moment of weakness last night since it was our first night sleeping in seperate beds. A "pep talk" from the OM or one of her "girlfriends" could transform her back into the woman I've seen for the past few weeks...the one that is convinced we never had love in the first place & just wants to get out of the M.