HBH & CTH, Thanks so much for your replies. I find myself having moments of doubt after a month that by not communicating I am showing I don't care & nailing the coffin shut. I know he's sending me a message, a very nasty one, that he's done & going to do whatever the h*ll he wants right now. Apparently that is moving in w OW. I have gone back & forth w wondering if I should let him know I'm taking him off my health insurance or just do it & he's not covered tough **&(. I waver between this anger at his total disrespectful behavior & a teeny silver of hope that I'm shutting the door on by NC. Am having a lot of anger these past few days, with some sadness. I don't wonder a lot about what he's doing but when I do I get really angry. Guess I need to stop that!
HBH, sorry for your situation but this is a very helpful place so keep reading & posting.
CTH, you're right. When I do hear from H it was sending me into a tailspin, usually because I know whatever he's got to say it's not good news. I'll try to remember that when I'm feeling sad. I am sorry you are here too and wish you all the best. I don't have kids & can't imagine how hard that must be. You have my support and wishes for strength through your LRT. It's truly the hardest thing I've ever done.
By the way, ADs have been a godsend, I recommnend them to help even out the rollercoaster emotions. And I'm a person who doesn't like to take even tylenol. I got the prescription in July but never took them til Sept., that's how resistant I was. Then I just felt like, this isn't going to end anytime soon, I need help. For what it's worth.
