K, I finally found and have read your thread and I have to say that we have a bit in common. My H also seems to enjoy being away from me. I would be with him all of the time if I could. I, too, am backing off, but it is very difficult. I understand that H needs breathing room right now. I know that my sitch is different because of H's A, but the not wanting to share a lot of time together is the same. Just hang in there. I think I'm probably older than you and I know that it takes two mountains to make a valley. I keep reminding myself of that. Also, I have also felt a little abandoned by the Lord, but I know that He loves me and is there. I can't imagine going through this without Him. Continue to pray and you will be in my prayers as well. It will get better. Hold your tongue and put on your best smile. Be warm and loving when he initiates. I'll try to remember to take my own advice. You've been very helpful and encouraging to me, so see, you aren't just thinking of yourself!!