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[awest1217]

After reading e-mail H calls and says wants to come back. Says tired of hurting me. I said I don't know and he said it is either today or never (like he should be giving me ultimatums). He has his grandma's viewing and funeral today. He said he is tired of living in boxes and moving stuff from one place to another. He says he wants to be part of a family. To have me as his wife. He is tired of waking up after a good nights sleep and reading how I am hurting or getting a phone call about how I am hurting. I feel so bad right now because I should have just left him alone. Not talked to him. Not done anything. Just let him go and now he wants to come home because he is mad. I can't handle this again. He did the same thing in May when he first left and every time he has said I am coming home and then doesn't. He says he will come back because that is "what he wants", but then he never does go through with it.

I just don't know what to do. I am hurting so bad, and am scared, and confused, and so many other negative emotions. He told me to get a sub and come straight home to make us work. If I really wanted us to work I would get a sub and help him move back in today. I just want to tell him NO YOU MOVED OUT AGAIN YOU MOVE BACK IN, but if I do he will be gone forever... why does that bother me when he has done nothing but hurt me? Probably because it is fresh. Oh well. Got to work and make a lesson plan for tomorrow to go to the funeral.