The adventure chronicles

[AFWAW]

Which half wants what?

SP, good to hear from you, thanks for sparking some thoughts for me.

Half of me wants her back to work on a better marriage and the other half thinks that she will come back and try to control everything as she did before--that's the half I don't want but will have to accept the whole package if she did.

Funny thing is, on the phone last night she got angry with me about a woman on my Facebook account that she "thinks" I wanted to get involved with or she thinks wanted to get involved with me. She asked me if she was still a friend on FB. I told her she was. So, she said, "well, I'm done then." And she hung up. So, this tells me that she still wants the old marriage where she was in control and got her way no matter what.

I had asked her about the dating option before this part of the conversation had transpired and had even set us up for two dates. There is obviously a lot of anger in her still though.

It does seem fair that she can react in the manner that she has though having done what she's done. But then again, no one said life was fair. So, it seems (unless she's doesn't really mean it) that the dating/reconciliation option is once again off the table. She's DBing and not even knowing it. The only difference now though is that I don't feel desperate to try to explain anything to her. There's nothing to explain for that matter. And I don't feel desperate enough to accept that type of behaviour from her either. It's bad enough to think that she can act this way toward me when she has no facts and is automatically assuming the worst.