K, I went to see my preacher today and he says that even when we feel far away from God, he will still be there for you, but you NEED to renew your relationship with him, this is far more important than with our Ss.
I took the zoloff, like I said for six weeks then stopped, now I take nothing, heck who needs pills when there is beer? lol. This is something else I need to calm down on.
I will tell you one thing though that I think is anti-DB. My preacher says that when we push our Ss in this situation who cares. We love our spouses unconditionally and it is only right to fight for our marriages, because God does not want families split up. This is all the work of Satan, because it is his plan to break up families even from the time we all said I do. But, remember God is always one step in front of Satan and He WILL help us as long as we are faithful in our relationships with Him.
K, you have been very helpful to me and love hearing from you! Stick to your goals and maybe try something else like doing things without telling H, be mysterious, this I hear also works. Just hang in there and reply soon! Remember I will be here for you. Mark "...last thing I needed, first thing this morning, was to have you walk out on me." -Willie Nelson
Thanks guys! Last night went ok. I worked late and went to the grocery store to fetch dinner. H went home at 3 b/c he is sick. (He usually works until 7 on Mondays). So, I cooked dinner-he always comes into the kitchen to talk/help while I cook, and I told him (as I have before) "you don't have to be in here, go chill if you want." and he said that he was fine. No R talk, I did pray but I am having a REALLY hard time concentrating-it helps me to write my prayers, so maybe i'll get back to that. What else-I was nice, not too clingy, asked him if he needed anything, etc., and we had ice cream.
This morn. I left late b/c I had a C appt. He slept on the couch off and on b/c of feeling ill. Instead of sitting on the couch, which I normally would do to be near him, I sat at the dining room table. He came over and pulled up a chair!
We have already discussed what we are doing this week, so I'm not so sure about creating a mystery. I'm hangin' with my friend Wed and was thinking about telling him to fend for himself for dinner. (I usually cook after his band practice.) thur. I have volleyball. he hasn't said anything about this weekend yet. I kinda want to be the one to say I'm going out, but I also want him to myself for a whole weekend.
Yes, my moods seem to be dependent on how H treats me. I need to feel Ok no matter what!
Well, I'm not sure what is going on tonight. I left a vm on H's cell phone. He's probably out working on a car.
My head feels funky (i've been having headaches & dizziness for the past couple months-some leading to migraines.) I had an MRI done on last Thurs, and I am getting an ENG and audiogram done on the 14th. Then I go back to the neurologist on the 21st to talk about the results. I'm kind of nervous, and I feel emotional b/c I'm tired of feeling this way. I feel like crying but I know I can't go home and cry!!!
Must i act as if nothing is wrong?? I guess so. I'll try more advil sinus.
Last night went well. I went home and H asked what we were doing for dinner. (he's still sick) so I asked if he wanted to get out of the house & we went to eat at a cheap little rest. I was nice, didn't whine-just told him my head was funky for a while, but did not get emo. or anything. We chatted, he was tired and started to fall asleep on the couch so we went to bed.
It's easy for me not to expect to ML when he is sick, but I'm hoping it will be soon again. Told him to fend for himself for dinner tonight b/c i am going to my gf's and i don't know what she & i are doing. He (pretended?) to be dissappointed. ???
Optimist, Thanks for following me & attaching the link! I have been reading Sage's story from the very beginning; it's taking a long time!! So, there's a happy ending?
Hope he feels better soon.