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[awest1217]

He left. I am up way to early and went to bed way too late. I am exhausted and can't stop crying. He said he left so he can read DR and begin to apply it and learn about himself without me or OW, but I know she will be there. He just does not want me around. He says he does not want a divorce and does want us to work more than anything. I doubt it.

I sent him an e-mail saying how hurt I am. I said it is like taking a deep wound and it being cut back open. I said how I feel like I am slowly dying. I wish he would have never come home and that I never let him. It hurts so much more now. I am sure at some point I will feel better again. I wish he would have left Friday or Saturday so I had time to get better before work.

H gets to have days off because his grandma passed away. He could take all week off. I am stuck going to work. Dealing wiht my students on teh hardest lab of the year, and dying inside. Plus I have to tell S every time he asks that Daddy is gone again.

It hurts so bad.