YOU sound healthy and I don't think your relatively unusual attitude, the 'faith that this could work out' is all for naught. Sometimes we have to trust ourselves and hey, if you are wrong, so what? You are still moving forward & that counts a lot.
Keep up the wonderful HARD work...
(( j ))
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016