For those with a WAS...How do you cope?

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So...while I was at church H asked if he could take DD to his parent's bc DD kept saying she wanted to go. I said that was fine and that I would be going out too.

After church, on my way to dinner and drinks with a girlfriend, H sends a text saying that is friend is buying tonight and we start texting about what we are doing. I know...I know...not the best thing to do.

Anyway, 2 of my girlfriends and I ended up meeting H and his friend. We went to 2 different bars. My friends and I had so much fun. We talked, laughed and danced. H's friend paid for everything and really us girls just entertained ourselves. My H just sat there looking like he could fall asleep. We didn't say much of anything to each other. H ended up staying at his friend's house and I went home.

So, I guess I'm back to doing what I was doing before last night. I was doing so good at detaching and showing H that I can be happy bc I'm focusing on me. Back to - no more texting, contacting him and so on.

I have no idea what my H thought of last night - but I do know he was right there to see me being fun - and that felt good to me. I was happy, funny, a little wild, had my friends cracking up and got on the dance floor like I owned it. lol

It is hard to be doing all this work on myself and H doesn't act like he notices or cares. But, I know this is about me and not him.

I was fun last night, but now I'm back on track. And I'm proud that I'm feel pretty good tonight - I had been dreading this weekend for a long time. Since this weekend marks 1 yr since H has moved out (which is still soooooo hard to beleive), I'm glad that I went out last night and had fun and he saw it. Cause a few weeks ago - I felt very down and felt overwhelmed by the 1 yr thing. I could have spent the weekend in tears, but I didn't and I'm happy about that.