Mark, I certainly would have told you not to quit A-D's cold turkey!! I've been through that! So, what are you taking now? I don't think my med's are helping that much and I've tried just about all of them!! I'm seeing a neurologist for migraines-I think the next time I see her I will discuss my dep/anx with her. I'm not sure I like my psychiatrist anymore, or my C for that matter.
I am going to see the C tomorrow morn. wish me luck. The last time I saw her, I had words with her. (told her that I thought she was focusing on the negative and that I need to be uplifted, and be solution-oriented.) She said, "do you know why we focus on the negative?" Yes, I say, so "i'll be inspired to change." Whatever. I would leave feeling worse about myself.
Anyhow, Ah yes, the proverbial I must love myself. Ok, dammit, I don't know how! I am into lots of stuff like Volleyball, scrapbooking, bike riding, walking my dogs, going out w/friends, etc., but still this HOLE prevails. A God-shaped hole, you say? I've heard of this before...
How do I re-connect with God. I feel like I have turned my back on him. Yes, confess, tell him how I really feel. ok...i can do that.
I think I should be more agreeable, and listen, and not get so defensive. I just go into panic mode when I think H is distancing himself. It's like I want comfort so bad, but I know he is not in a place to give me much. He feels like I always have my paws out asking for more and more...
