Had an MRI on my right knee on Friday, so we'll have to wait and see what the film turns out. I'm hoping for physical therapy b/c it would also allow me to continue strengthening my left knee that was repaired a few years ago. My benefits ran out before I got that one completely healthy, so going to PT a few times a week would be awesome!
Things are about the same w/GF. Last weekend we had a great time taking the kids to the zoo, but someone stole her jeep and it turned up stripped at the Mexican border. So, needless to say, that caused her some more stress.
I've been fluxuating w/my feelings and confidence in our R lately, but that only pushed me to delve deeper into the How to Improve your R w/o talking about it book. I'm so glad I'm reading it as it has allowed me to look at myself and why I do things as well as to have some understanding as to what GF does and why.
So, I can honestly say I've been able to get my "groove back" and my confidence is back up again where it should be and I'm not anxious about GF and I. Again, I'm falling in love w/this woman, but I'm ok if things don't work out w/us.
I'm comfortable and able to do things w/out her and I'm fine w/giving her space when she needs it. We had a great night out last night (watching my Dawgs lose at ASU) and I got to hang out, read, watch football, and work out this afternoon.
I guess I'm saying that I was falling back into old habits of self-doubt, but I'm glad I'm reading this book b/c it got me back on track.
I also did what I've been meaning to do for a while which is to put up my little notes on my mirror and around my desk to remind me to continue to believe in myself and be confident no matter what as well as to be self-disciplined so I can get myself back into the physical shape I'm proud of.
The book has also given me the opportunity to put up a note which reminds me to improve, appreciate, connect and protect my relationship w/GF so I can use it as a reminder when I start to over-analyze and only look at things from my perspective instead of from her's as well.
Exercising again has boosted my spirits and I need to continue to remember how this feels b/c I'm happiest when I exercise.
So far, due to my knees being so sore, I've only been riding the bike for 25:00 (as per dr's orders), but I'm pushing myself hard and breaking out in a good sweat, so its been productive. I managed to get in 4 days this week, and I'm happy w/that after several (i.e. too many) weeks away.
I'm hoping to get five or six next week.
So, that's it for me for now. Talk to you all later.
