K, here I am, man are you OK? K, you really need to think about making YOURSELF happy. It seems to me that when you are down you blame H, and when your are up it is because H is being more like a H. I know what you are feeling I was the same way. I just wish W had not left so abruptly(sp?), and she has been gone for five loooong months.
K, we can not depend on others with our own happiness, not S, not family, only ourselves. This was a hard thing for me to learn, but then suddenly it came to me. Do I get depressed at times, oh hell yes, but I pray to God and it makes me smile. K, you told me that you were going to act as if so just do it. Remain upbeat with H and when you need to argue or vent come here, we all understand! Let your H initiate R talk, do not do it yourself.
K, I may just be rambling, but I know you can do it. Did you not say you were saved? If so you know what to do and who to look for for guidance. I am here for you just drop a line from time to time.
Oh yeah, agreeing, this is something I have also learned, being agreeable. This is very powerful stuff, but keeps a lot of arguments in check. Whether you agree or not in your heart, just do it it gives the other person no ammunition to fight you with and they will love you more for it. Again, this is something that has taken time for me, but seems at times it REALLY works.
One last thing to all of y'all, why did you all not tell to not stop ADs cold turkey. I went on them for six weeks (free samples) then when I ran out I thought, man I am good I don't need these miracle blue pills anymore. Oh did I find I was wrong! Oh well, learn from mistakes, just wish doctor had told me, I guess that is why they make the big bucks. Keep us in the dark so we have to keep coming back in and spending more money..I think I need to change my career. Mark "...last thing I needed, first thing this morning, was to have you walk out on me." -Willie Nelson
