New to this Community seeking advice

[JR09]

Journaling.

My S10 called to say Hi. That made my day. He said he and my S12 were going hunting with Granpa, my W's father. I'm glad they are going to have fun. I really want to call my W, but I don't want to sound pushy or needy, so I have decided not to call her. Maybe she'll decide to call this time? No idea. I am the one who is used to calling her weekly to say Hi. But I'm going to do a major 180 and not call. Let's see what happens next.

Anyway. I have this friend who called me yesterday to tell me he was getting a divorce. He told me how happy he was that he's in control of his life again. I guess he ended his limbo status with a D. I am not at that point yet. I don't feel D is the answer to my situation. My W is pulling back, I get that. But this is not the end yet. Maybe I'm trying to convince myself or refuse to see what could happen. I don't know.

JR