TBH I found friday/sat with H quite draining, feel a real sense of detachment, if he phoned right this minute and asked me out the answer would be no Im having a nice bath and an early night I just dont want the hassle!
Feel like I need to look after me this week, I have laid the groundwork, I have shown H the new me, in more ways than one and he still asked what had changed so Im a bit well if you cant see it or your just getting to prove it well you can go take a running jump sonny.
So he is responsible for the next date, Im going NC again and spending this week rejuvinating myself and spending more time with madam as I need to get her schooling worked on instead of her just being hacked, lots of chores to do anyway my saddle needs a good clean and madam needs a clip as she is starting to look like a wooley yak pony.
H isnt doing anything up here with his trains next weekend so he cant use that as an excuse to visit so will have to be just him. Although when he thought our date might have to be cancelled so he didnt catch swine flu he did say he wanted to see me so much that he thought we could do breakfast away from the house and the bug monster, pity I didnt sense that when we met?
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Once lost but now found and happily married again!
