You blame yourself for the situation and to be quite frank (which I always am with you), you should. That being said, as men, we're fixers...something is broken...we fix it. Having broken this yourself, your desire to fix it is even greater. Problem is YOU can't fix it and that's a struggle for you...would be for most guys.
I can most certainly relate to this!
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.
