I know she needs my love more than I need hers. And that is an absolute fact.

For some reason I don't feel grief, but empathy...

I know I need to show my kids they have a dad that can take it to the chin and get back up...

I know she and everyone else needs to see a guy that isn't going to be broken down and desperate...

I've lived thru and I'm living thru something vs being a victim of it.

I pray like you wouldn't believe that she'll change her mind, she still hasn't talked to me.

My family knows she's filed on me and vs cutting her off like her family has me, they are still going to take her calls and talk to her, etc.

We had a good, but not awesome marriage and I know my faults and I've learned what I need to do better in whatever relationship I have in the future. But I keep praying that the love inside me and a lot of people praying turn this around before she breaks up a family. There is a lot about me she needs to know I'm capable of and can handle.

Like most of you, I'd like to give her a brochure on symptons of a MLC, I would have loved it if a cnslr had told her not to file until she gets thru this, but I realize I married a woman that always wanted to escape reality, be a matyr, and be able to do her own thing.

I've had time to look back on her and I.She is repeating a cycle that she always had,she always went to others vs me for support vs going to me.But in any of her relationships in the past that's what she did. Unlike the other relationships she got more from me than what she had gotten from others.

I loved and smothered her with things I didn't get growing up and now I no it was overkill.IE:Flowers every Tuesday,love notes in her car,everyday giving her a compliment vs saying you stupid idiot what are you doing. I lost a lot of my voice in our marriage,I am enjoying being nice no matter and I have my voice back.

I saw her yesterday, her head was down, mine was up and i was looking good. She set with my dad and I didn't ask him what came up. Had my son, he started to tell on his mom and I said I don't need to hear anything.

S lets just "enjoy this adventure."