I am very trusting in my IC, as each time I've come to him with a "Hey, this is great, listen to what is going on," he's actually been very reserved and with a knowing smile said something like, "that is one possibility... it could be great. There are some other possibilities though, such as you could be being used to fill a need on your W behalf right now and in those cases you're going to need to ask yourself if that works for you."
I head into this with a huge air of caution. Further, it's made me think quite a lot, as the last few days I've been so myself and GAL that I refuse to accept fear, dishonesty, or disrespect back in my life from me or my W. My POV right now is that I am going to need to see that my W is truly and seriously ready to and already starting to address issues and work at our M. Actions are going to be what matters from here on out, and if W states that she's completely cut off OM contact and I find out that this isn't so, I may very well walk away altogether. This is all so strange as just a few months ago I was a begging, pleading, groveling mess and even a few weeks ago-- even after stopping all that and starting to DB-- I still had a totally different, co-dependant mindset. Now I'm thinking, "I don't know, maybe I'm better off parting ways..." It's such a strong contrast that I almost feel cold about it. I guess this is typical?
Either way, today is GREAT, and I'm gonna love the life I got! Today's GAL activities include good food and watching the Patriots tear it up!
