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[awest1217]

Funny because last night he said he left the game early and walked around campus to think. He said he doesn't want to try and hasn't been, DUH, and thinks he should just leave. I said ok, but maybe he should try getting some help before he left and ruined everything, especially because he might regret it later. He cried a lot but I said it was all up to him. To top things off while he was gone I moved everything around in hte bedroom to match what he wanted and I made him a peach cobbler which he loves. He said he does not deserve me loving him and feels bad about me doing all of this just for him to leave. I said oh well that is what you do when you love someone.

Now he is "sick" and probably wants me to stay home to take care of him. I am thinking, why should I, you will probably leave tomorrow anyway so why should I not go to something I am looking forward to (we are having a friends day with a 50s theme)? But at the same time, he is my husband and going is probably sealing my fate because he will say I am not taking care of him or making him a priority. Decisions, Decisions.

I was awesome last night cried a little, but did not beg him to stay. It is up to him and I am done begging. If he wants to go good riddens. If not I am hoping he will start trying or at least go to talk to someone.