Forgive AND forget?

[WCW]

MG, we have been here a long time. My sitch started more than 18 months before I even got here. Makes ya wonder if we're sane.... or not!!

Oh sure, he could get spooked and run back out, but I believe he knows what he wants... but he has to make peace with what he has done, he still wonders how anyone can forgive him for what he has done...... He needs to learn how to accept or forgive himself first, before seeking and accepting forgiveness.

So well put! H holds grudges too, and things I did when ow had him hooked on her finger weren't so nice and justified or not I am sure prolonged things. We have a very long bumpy trail ahead of us but I am feeling like at least we are getting to where we are at the same trailhead to start.

One thing to vent (only one! haha) - this last week was ow's birthday. I don't remember the exact date anymore but I think it was the one night that H came home late. I'm not saying he was or wasn't out with her, but I wouldn't doubt there was some sort of party at her barn with a group of friends. That would seem pretty normal, and it would be abnormal if H wasn't included.

So....H just left on his annual hunting trip but this time he is not hunting. He is just taking time to visit with kids and grandkids, rest and recover his sore body from the physical work he does. I know he deserves and needs time away but being self employed he doesn't make money on vacation either and his bills keep piling up. Maybe soon we'll be able to start tackling that dilemma.

Yesterday we spent a lot of time talking about a lot of things, but no R talk. Actually, I listened a lot while H talked. It was real nice! I also opened up to H about some family issues that he was surprised to hear, and it felt good to have a sounding board.

We also went to the cell phone store so H could take advantage of my work discount. He is finally losing the anger enough to have some sense to save some cents! Then we had a wedding to attend for a gal that calls us her adopted parents. H stayed pretty close and we laughed with friends and had a good time.

Ok, it's been a short night. Think I'll go back to bed for a couple hours.