Hi M.. I really like what you wrote, its food for thought for all of us. I too had to take a long hard cold stare at how I used to operate in our old R. I hope we are more healthy now. I think its good you ackowldege your resentments and his reaction to that..not that its justification like you say.. but I personally found it helpful to understand the context of how we came to separate.
I really feel for you on the obsessional thoughts and mood swings.. I was consumed with thoughts of her (in this house and initially, I slept on her pillow and under 'their' duvet..imagine!) and what you read and saw makes it all worse. In my experience, those memories do recede as soon as you start building up new memories together and so I'm glad you all hung out today! How was his mood??
Anyway, did you read Penny Thornton today, for the week ahead? (and after by the sounds of it!).. 19th October 2009 - 25th October 2009
There are possibilities taking root now that are due to manifest next year so if your radar picks up signs and signals don't be in too much of a hurry to decipher them: they are ideas whose time has not yet come. This is not to say that you should refuse a direct proposal, especially if it is exactly what you want. It's more a case of being patient but quietly expectant, and getting on with the business in hand. A relationship can deepen and intimate secrets exchanged, and if you need to get to the root of a matter you'll do so easily and with profound results. This has been a tough year for Pisces, but here is more than a little chink of light.
