It's too hard sometimes

[TooLateForMe]

I got a prescription for paxil yesterday. Due to my manic metabolism they kicked in quickly.

Talk about detachment! I don't even care much. It would be nice if we got back together, but if not that's okay too.

I'm not suggesting the answer to everyone's problems are anti-depressants but I've had a history of depression and anxiety. I was concerned this situation would send me into a spiral, so I talked to the doctor. Plus my W has mentioned I was depressed though I blew her off. She was probably right. If only I'd done something back then...

The flashes of memories still hit me, reminding me of all the important things. But they aren't as intense and don't send me into that crushing sadness.

I'm excited to live right now and let the whole thing go. This worries me a bit. If this detachment works and she does eventually come back will I want her? I barely do now.