Well not much new since last I posted? I had composed several letters but gave him none of them...my gut just says this is not the time to do anything major on my part. We had one R talk about a week ago because otherwise I would have gone insane. Despite him confirming "people don't change" "You're not going to change my mind" ...but him also saying that he had been still too busy to decide what he wanted to do next and he doesn't want to hurt the kids. I don't care if it's non-DB - this reality-check & chance to let out some of my pent-up feelings was really good for me. I thanked him then and also later for listening to and talking with me. My point of view is that he's still in the house and he's still in the bed....so in order to cope with this mind-bending type of separation - I am going to need to do a little R-like talk once in awhile or else go insane! And I have kids so I can't afford to allow the insaneness to win! If he decides to walk out the door - then obviously all bets are off and my behavior would be much more like most of you guys & gals here!
We did end up having sex a little less than a week ago. It was very enjoyable but I don't read anything major into it. It's a nice little good sign or goal achieved & lots of fun of course! Okay....it was flipping awesome in every way! He's such a great lover when he wants to be...and I'd like to think also good luck to him finding a woman as good in the bedroom too as me!
Sex hasn't happened since but also I haven't seen him seem to withdraw from me emotionally more afterwards...was a little worried that might happen but no changes noticed. Using what I've learned from LHF about respect, our day-to-day interactions and communications are still continuing to be full of respect and consideration on both sides.
I really don't think there is much more I can do on my end in this relationship so I'm trying to look at things I want to do for myself - Long put off house cleaning and changes around the house. Have a business trip (conference) to go to next week and plan to have a great time there! He's at a cabin-weekend with the guys from work that we both know and I'm having a nice girls weekend with my little girls so far. I was worried that sleeping alone last night I would feel really lonely but honestly it was no problem. (So I feel more confident now that if he leaves, I won't have any problems sleeping.)
Sorry this is so long but guess maybe more has happened than I realized!
Okay....it was flipping awesome in every way! He's such a great lover when he wants to be...and I'd like to think also good luck to him finding a woman as good in the bedroom too as me! 
