T I couldn't agree with you more but it's not about to happen.
Yesterday was a real mix of good and sad things and it ended up with me having a complete melt down.
Good financial thing was that CSA finally caught up with XH and as of 12th Oct he will have to pay me maintenance for the half time D14 spends with me. That's a weight off my mind as it will greatly help towards the new huge mortgage I am about to take on.
Sad v. emotional thing has been bubbling for a while. I had plans to meet my friend last night to see another friend play in a band. This did happen. However I knew at the end ofthe eve she was going onto the bday party of the guy I had a fling with a few weeks ago. We met through her. I thought I could handle this but it turned out I couldn't and I ended up leaving v. early in order to save myself the embarrssment of breaking donw in public. I sobbed myself to sleep. When I think about this I got upset b/c I have fought so long the forced exclusion from my old life and this just felt like it was starting all over again in my new life. I've got to get to grips with this before it damages my friendship with this particular individual.
This morning I finally got in the post my D certificate. I sobbed some more and now I look like I've been in a boxing match and lost.
I'm not sure there ever is peace in life.
Me 43 XH 45 M 2.7.88 Divorce 7.10.09 Kids D20,S17 & D15
