Is this the end of my marriage?

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How is total avoidance mode working for you?

Generally good.

What results are you getting?

I enjoy having them and we have a good time, but I haven't been able to stop wondering what W is doing.

I completely understand that. I have good and bad days - today is a good day. Yesterday was a bad one. The only thing that I have tried and works is to understand that she is living her own life now and you can't control anything she does. However thinking about it is making me upset, unwell and unhappy. For my own sanity, I try hard to just to feel the feelings and let them wash over me. It doesn't always work, but I'm getting better.

This is the one place that actually keeps me going. Without it I'd have filed for D already.